'Be anxious for nothing..." ~Philippians 4:6

Thursday, March 25, 2010

THURSDAY THOUGHTS: REMEMBERING WILLIAM BROCKENBERRY, JR.



Peace, mutual respect, discipline, manners, kindness, courtesy, and order, mean a lot to me. 

I worked hard to maintain order in my classroom, when I was a teacher at Patricia Roberts Harris Educational Center, in far SE Washington, DC. 
I was happy to be teaching in my own neighborhood, and the area in which I'd grown up and attended elementary, and junior high school. 
I wanted to change the negative narrative, feel safe and secure, and I wanted the same for my students. 
If they felt safe nowhere else, I wanted them to know that in my classroom, I had their backs. 
Bullies wouldn't be tolerated. 
I wouldn't turn a deaf ear to their problems-- no matter how silly they seemed. 
I was there to help, not to hurt
I, also, would not put up with foolishness of any kind, and I made that perfectly clear. 

I detest arguments and fighting. Maybe it wasn't realistic, but I was determined to have peaceful days, in an environment where the maximum amount of learning could take place. 
Classroom decorum and management was critical. All that you learn in chaos, is that chaos impedes learning.

I firmly believe that a classroom can be filled with the most expensive, state-of-the-art equipment that money can buy, and be facilitated by the most educated instructor, but without order, positive learning cannot and will not take place.

There were many days when some disruptive little darling made me wonder if, when deciding to be a teacher, I had literally bumped my head. 
There were days when reasoning with a child did little good, and the only alternative was to remove a child from the room. 
Stubborn children, who were laboring under the misapprehension that they were in charge, and could do and say whatever they pleased, got on my every available nerve. 
All I could draw upon was how I was raised, and what was expected of me as a student. Had I done or said what some of my students did and said, I wouldn't be alive to type this blog entry. 

Disrespectful, rude little children who were determined to waste valuable time, and hinder other children from learning, made me positively livid. Repeat offenders drained every ounce of my patience--especially when I learned that their behavior wasn't new, or exclusive to my classroom. 
On those days, all I wanted to see was the back of the rude little kid's head, as they left the building with their parents--and their parents would be carrying suspension or expulsion papers. 

On those days, when compassion refused to kick in, I was very glad that one Mr. William Brockenberry, Jr. was sitting at his desk at the top of the stairs. 
I wouldn't even have to say a word
"Don't worry about it Ms. Williams. I got 'em", he'd say. 
He DID have them. To them, he was a giant, and when they came back, they had a brand new attitude, and even a sincere apology to me and their classmates.

Mr. Brockenberry was so much more than a security guard. 
He was a coach, mentor, and friend to the children, in the manner that friendship with children counts. 
He wasted no time chastening them if they needed it. 
Many things he did, on his own time and dime, to help students and their families, will never be known. He didn't have to demand respect, because he gave it. 
Many often complained that he seemed to have better control over the children than others did. Many wondered how it was that the kids would comply to his wishes, when everything else failed. 
He wasn't playing with them; he was a father figure, but he did show them that he could laugh and have fun. 
When they needed an encouraging word, he gave it with the same intensity as he did when they needed their behavior checked. 
The kids wanted his approval and they listened to him. 

It had nothing to do with his size. Yes, he was a big guy--a towering 6 feet 5, give or take an inch, and his voice would stop hallway runners and class skippers in their tracks, but his stature didn't hide his big heart. 
He cared for the children. He called them "My kids". 
He wanted them to succeed. He gave of his time, energy and personal resources. His no-nonsense approach, meant that I could go back downstairs and do what I was there to do-- teach.

He would create opportunities for the children to display their talents. When the auditorium's sound system failed to work, he'd bring his own, stand at the edge of the stage, and run it himself if he had to. There were fashion shows, and talent shows, field trips, sports practices and games to play--and he was right there-- often long after everyone else was gone--working with the children, indoors and out.

He was still a relatively young man---only 45 years old---but he filled his life with service to his family and others. 

I'm praying for the comfort of his loved ones, and applauding his efforts, sacrifice, commitment, and sincere concern for children. Some people merely say, "Children First". Mr. Brockenberry believed and demonstrated it.

The school is closed now, and many of the children I knew and taught are all grown up--some with children of their own--but we know, "Once a Falcon, Always a Falcon".

IN THE MORNING


It was a very quiet day
I'd done everything I said I would do
And at the end of that day
I asked if anything I'd done was pleasing to You

It was fine time for me to ask
The sun had set
And the day was practically over
Time, of course, is in His hands
I could hear Him say
I have some things to show her

Go to Psalm 5:3
And follow the lead of the Psalmist
After my heart, was he
And you, My child, I love no less
When I wake you from sleep
Talk to me and get your instructions
And at each day's end
I will bless you with safety and rest

I promise you, Lord
From that day to this
My voice shalt Thou hear in the morning
O LORD, in the morning
My prayer I'll raise to you
I'll look up and anticipate your plan for my day
I won't go left or right
Or make a single decision
My desire is to do what you want me to do

I promise you, Lord
From that day to this
My voice shalt Thou hear in the morning,
O LORD, in the morning
To you I'll fervently pray
I am eager to hear your thoughts for me
I'll look up and await what Your heart has to say

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

WEDNESDAY THOUGHTS: WHAT GOOD IS A SONG?



I just placed my newly downloaded files, from Monday night's rehearsal, into their own special folder. This rehearsal was as productive as the first one, held 2 weeks ago. 

I feel so fortunate...

I am madly in love with harmony. 
Solos have their place, but hearing one's voice blending with the voices of others, is such a lovely gift. 

I listened to the tape I made (yes, tape) and smiled. 
I can really appreciate listening to rehearsal now that Raymond forwarded mp3's of his digital recording of it, via file-share. Now I can listen with ease on my computer's media player.

During the great February snow-in, when early spring cleaning seemed like a good idea, I found my Radio Shack micro-cassette recorder, and some micro-cassettes. 
Monday evening, I put a pack of AA batteries in my purse, and set off to rehearsal, prepared to push play/record/pause/rewind all night. 
I hadn't used the recorder in a while, and it amazed me how I had to figure it out again.
 
When I got home, I pressed play, and heard what sounded like "Alvin and The Chipmunks Sing Gospel". 
The tape speed was set to "freight train", and I was afraid that I'd wasted my right thumb's time all night. 
I adjusted the speed when I finally figured out which switch would allow me to hear the actual sounds I heard us sing. 
 (I wonder how long it will be, until the only place one can see a micro-cassette recorder, is on display at the Smithsonian?) 

I thought about the time when the micro-cassette recorder was cutting edge, and laughed. I won't toss it, though. It still works, and it served its purpose. 
I am grateful, however, for advances in technology-- even though I always seem to hop on board with the newest gadget, with a lot less enthusiasm, and a lot later than most.

I'm enjoying listening to the new songs, as we learn and sing them for the first time. It's like a baby being born, and, as it grows week after week, it inevitably blossoms, gets stronger, and makes you marvel at the whole conception process.

Even though he's a bit of an Inspector Gadget, and has access to state-of-the-art music technology, the fragile infant "Promises" is being fed by Richard on piano alone, singing and teaching parts to each section, the same way he delivered "Adoration", "Healing", "Persuaded" "Rejoice", and "Journey". 
The harmonies are beautiful, and hearing him play unaccompanied by guitars, drums and the like, is always a treat. 
It's great watching him think and create. 
In a few months, we'll hear what the musicians in the Vision family have to offer from their instruments, and all of the other wonderful sounds that make Richard's lyrics, melodies, and our voices, shine even more.

I've been a participant in lots of rehearsals, and, unfortunately, they haven't all been pleasant experiences. 
If it weren't for home training, sometimes I've just wanted to get my things and excuse myself. 
I've wondered sometimes if I was at a rehearsal, or a get together. It's painful being in rehearsals when you know that little will be accomplished, or that the leader's heart and mind are far away from the business at hand. It's even more painful when the leader's skill, choices in music, attitude, and maturity, leave a lot to be desired. 
A rehearsal where the leader is competent, prepared, and passionate, tends to flow so smoothly, and transforms into a veritable feast for the ears, and relief for the heart and mind. 
You want to be attentive. 
You want to learn. 
You want to get it right. 
You don't notice the time passing. 
You want to retain what you've learned, because it's meaningful, beautiful and inspiring. 

Leadership is such a key element in anything
It is an ineffective teacher, who cannot communicate enthusiasm, a sincere interest, or love for the subject to be taught. 
An effective teacher makes learning meaningful. Even little kids can spot busy work, and know when their time is being wasted. 
There was no waste on Monday night.

It's so wonderful to learn new songs-- and love them as one learns. 

After rehearsal, Quincy Jones' "What Good Is a Song" came to mind. 
No, every song is not meant to inspire, nor does every song have a positive message to bring. 
Some songs are positively depressing, ignorant, poorly conceived, have no redeeming value, and are only fit to be filed in the "noisy noise" category. 

I know. I know. Art is subjective, and one person's serenade, is another person's clanging cymbal, but a song with substance seems to be my favorite kind these days. 
If a song fails to move me in a positive way, it's darn near impossible for me to communicate its sentiments to anyone else. 
One may as well sing the telephone book. Fortunately, I'm already in love with, and blessed by the new songs I've been taught.

"Promises", Richard's highly anticipated project with my pals called "Vision", promises to be as encouraging and inspiring as every other gem that the Lord has whispered into his ear, and sent him to his wonderful piano to play, and sing. 
I admit a little bias--okay---a lot. 
I'm just grateful to be a part of it.


"What good is a song if it can't inspire; if it has no message to bring? If a song cannot take you higher...then it's not good enough to sing." 
~Quincy Jones

WEDNESDAY THOUGHTS: THE LANGUAGE OF SONG








Any time a trip is on the horizon, it makes me think of all of the places I've already been. 

In January 2009, I flew to Frankfurt to attend a conference for women at Jesus World Outreach Center in Heidelberg, Germany. 
In August, it was back to Frankfurt again for revival services at Schweinfurt Christian Center in Sennfeld/Bayern. 

I was invited back to Heidelberg early this year. 
In January, I stayed a week, had a lovely time with the JWOC family, and from there spent a week in Ramstein-Meisenbach and Altenglan visiting with friends, Bishop J. Alan and Wanda Neal, and the gracious congregation at Agape Christian Faith Center.

When I think of the places the Lord has blessed me to go, I can't help but thank Him, and acknowledge that his word is true. He really does know the plans he has for me! It must be His idea, because I personally put the "H" in homebody. God knows my 
comfort zone . If I don't have to go anywhere, I'm quite content at home. However, the effort, kindness, and relentlessness of others, has enriched my life. Sometimes at a moment's notice, I get to go places I'd only seen in encyclopedias, atlases, and PBS travel programs--and when I get there, someone actually wants to hear me sing. 

I've always liked to sing, and do so appreciate a well written song, but I have to admit that I only began singing publicly because my Mother made me join the youth choir at our church when I was 12. 
The last place my insecure self wanted to be, was in front of people. 
Who knew that the thing I only LIKED to do, and did out of obedience, would become a way of life
Lesson? 
Always listen to your mother.

There are times when you really have to thank God for the diligence of someone else, and realize that nothing occurs accidentally. 
In 2008, I was afforded a wonderful opportunity to travel to Spain, to sing with the Madrid Gospel Choir at the World's Fair in Zaragoza. 
When I got the call and heard "Spain", I had to ask the caller to repeat herself. I'd never been there before, and there was not a lot of time to plan, but I didn't waste time thinking about saying "Yes!". 
The Lord had opened yet another door for me to meet brothers and sisters in Christ from another country. I thought about the fact that, when it came to songs of worship and praise to God, there seemed to be no language barriers.

There were wonderful rehearsals in preparation for the concert called "Coro Gospel Agua Viva". 
Traveling to Zaragoza from Madrid was a lovely experience. 
Upon our arrival at the expo site, I learned that media outlets scheduled interviews with Richard. The Aragon Radio interview was to be held outdoors at the concert venue. Richard graciously invited Charrisse and I to participate. I planned to just sit there smile, keep quiet, and just be happy to be in the number. Radio announcer, Joaquin Guzman spoke very little English, and for the first time in my life, I sorely regretted not taking at least one Spanish class in high school. 

Of the two language classes I did take, French and Latin, I emerged unscathed, but only retaining enough to barely get by. Latin helped a great deal with English--especially those words with way too many letters. French just sounded beautiful to the ear. I loved speaking it, but didn't completely understand a thing I said, wrote, or read. I could at least eek out a decent greeting, and order the right food from a menu. 

My Spanish was rusty at best, but thankfully, I am a member of the baby boomer, phonics generation. I can still hear my teachers saying, "Sound it out!" And we "sounded" words out until we were exhausted--but we could pronounce them, spell them, and use them in sentences. We were told that people appreciate it when you at least attempt to communicate with them in their own language--and when it came to YOUR own native language, YOU should be the master of it.

In the days prior to the trip I tried a hopeless, personal crash course. I turned on the television, and would leave it on the Spanish speaking channel as if that would somehow miraculously transform me into Senora Vanessa. What was I thinking? I was suddenly grateful for Sesame Street, but I knew it was useless for me to try and become fluent in a matter of days. Our interpreters, Nancy, Steve, and Terry were wonderful, but I felt so sad that I couldn't communicate for myself the way I wanted to. I sincerely believe, though, if the Lord wants you to say something, He has no trouble making it happen.

In the midst of the interview, Nancy relayed that Joaquin wanted to hear a song. Richard, Charrisse and I looked at each other. I'm my parents' least aggressive child, so I was sure one of them would start singing, or Richard would suggest something. When he looked at me and nodded, I had one of those moments when not one of the hundreds of songs you KNOW that you know would come to mind! Not even one of HIS songs came to mind! Joaquin was smiling and waiting, and an early audience was slowly filling into the seats. Then my brain did something for which I will always be amazed. You can't remember where you put the ink pen you just wrote with. You can't recall your own phone number. You stand at the refrigerator wondering why you opened the door--but you see someone from elementary school in the mall, and you can remember what they wore on picture day, and what their book report was about. That hot day in Spain, my brain kicked in, and I remembered hearing Sandi Patti sing:

Por la Via Dolorosa, triste dia en Jerusalem
Los soldados le abren paso a Jesus
Mas la gente se acercaba
Para ver al que llevaba aquella cruz
Por la Via Dolorosa que es la via del dolor
Como oveja vino Cristo, Rey, Senor
Y fue El quien quiso ir por su amor por ti y por mi
Por la Via Dolorosa al Calvario y a morir

I remembered, and the words just poured out. I sang into Joaquin' microphone what I'd heard Sandi sing. When I finished, he turned to Nancy and spoke. Nancy translated, "Will you be singing that tonight? I smiled and said, "No", and that the song just kinda showed up out of nowhere. Joaquin turned and spoke to Nancy again. She translated, "Beautiful! I should go to Mass more often!"

After it was over, Nancy asked me if I knew what I had done. I was praying that I hadn't butchered the language, and instead of singing about our Lord and Savior, I'd sung about Jesus the happy squirrel running through the streets of Jerusalem in his striped pajamas, or something. I don't know why I thought Aragon was a small Christian radio station. I didn't know it was secular, and nationwide. Nancy told me that I had sung of the love and sacrifice of Jesus on a station that rarely, if ever played Christian music, in a country where there is not nearly the glut of religious broadcasting that we sorely take for granted in America. She even complimented me on my Spanish.
"I didn't know you spoke Spanish!", she said. 
I laughed. "I don't". 
Because Sandi Patti studied, I was able to share. Thanks Sandi. 
Thank You, too, Lord.

My next out of the country stop? Guadeloupe. I'm looking forward to returning. It's been about 10 years since I first traveled there. (I have to brush up on my French, I suppose.)
 
Hallelujah! 
Now that's one word that everyone, everywhere understands.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

"ALMOST A CENTURY OF EFFORT..." :HEALTH INSURANCE REFORM


I heard the familiar "message received" and looked at my phone. The message sent at 1:44PM today read, "Today after almost a century of effort, health insurance reform becomes law. Thank you for your partnership in creating change--President Obama"

I won't text back. He's probably very busy, being the POTUS and all. I will, however pray for him and his lovely family. Hatred is still lingering in America, but it pales in comparison to the power of love, compassion, the tenacity to do the right thing and true service.

For days, people have been arguing whether health care is a right or a privilege. The folks who argue the most and the loudest are the ones who have health insurance. Congressmen who were sent to serve their constituents, and who have the best health care money can buy, were consumed by some idea that reforming the health care system was an evil thing to do. Further debate has been going on as to how the country will pay to keep its citizens well. I imagine that the same dollars that go toward sending men and women to die, fight and kill, can be channeled into helping to keep Americans healthy, safe and alive. 

I'm always amused when someone says, "The American people want this or that", and I know for sure that no one has asked me or anyone I know what we think. Fear, hatred and threats are still being trotted out as deterrents to progress and many are still following crowds and behaving badly as if they all share a collective brain. 
This past week reminded me of how I feel each time I see violent footage from the civil rights era. I always look at the angry faces of the people who are spitting, beating, fighting, sicking, cursing and wonder, "Where are their children and grandchildren?"

I never will understand why people would begrudge others anything that would improve the quality of their lives. Many people forget that the grace of God covers us all, and nothing we have or will obtain is acquired without his help. If one can work, it's by God's grace. if one is wealthy, it's by God's grace. Life's circumstances can turn from good to bad in a matter of seconds. What one has worked for a lifetime to gain, can be washed away in an instant. We never know when we will be the one in need of help. It would behoove us all to dismount from high horses of self-importance and self-reliance, meet needs when we have the ability to do so, and thank God as often as we can for his mercy and grace.

THOUGHTS AFTER READING: Judges 20-21, Ruth 1-4, Luke 21-22

What is the greater crime? Sacrificing someone else to save one’s own skin or rape and mutilation? It is amazing the things people can rally about. They don’t have to know facts or details, but can be quick to form a posse based on the words of one person. What causes will I support without finding out information for myself?
THE WILDERNESS IS NOT A GOOD ESCAPE ROUTE.
If anyone is going to help the enemy regroup and regain strength, it can’t be me! I can’t allow a sense of compassion to cause me to forget that He is neither a friend, nor asset.
Elimelech (may kingship come my way; God is my king) was a wealthy man of the tribe of Judah who was married to Naomi (pleasant) and the father of Machlon (Yoash) Mechilon-sickness) and Chilyon (Saraph) decimation) Why would a wealthy man leave the House of Bread and take his family to an empty field? Was he even affected by the famine? How could he afford to travel? Did he have to leave home or was he getting away from an opportunity to help others less fortunate than he?
Ruth and Orpah (back of the head) both had an opportunity to walk into great blessing. Who will I emulate? Will I trust God and believe His word or turn back in disbelief and disappointment?
Is there a Bethlehem in my life? Is there a place where I will not be accepted or received because I’m considered a stranger? Who will encourage or discourage me? Who is giving me advice that seems rational but is not according to the will of God? What am I doing wherever I am that is not customary? What am I doing that is rubbing people the wrong way? What am I doing that is causing people to talk about me, but not prompting them to correct or assist me? Who is my Boaz? Who is covering me, looking out for me and dispensing wisdom? Am I missing something? Have I misunderstood the intentions of others? In the absence of my mother, who is my Naomi?
HOW DO I PERCEIVE WHAT HAS HAPPENED IN MY LIFE? IS IT THE WAY GOD WANTS ME TO? How does He want me to view disappointment?
What has God reserved for me that even one who deserves it will not be able to have? What has God determined belongs to me that requires me to demonstrate patience and adhere to wisdom?
I cannot allow anyone to name my baby! My baby has a name and a destiny!
My giving is between me and God. The covenant concerning my giving is between me and God. He participates in my giving. From the beginning He has been more concerned with the spirit of giving. I cannot afford to allow myself to be deceived in any way concerning the things of God. I cannot be so easily impressed by what man has to offer. I cannot be afraid to check what is said to me against the word of God. His word stands against anything that seeks to come against me. I can’t ever lose my love for it, my enthusiasm to hear it, my determination to obey it.
How will I emerge from a test? Do I even know when I am being tested? Do I have to know?

THOUGHTS AFTER READING: 1 Samuel 6-10 and Luke 24

Being in the presence of God is such a precious gift. There is a reverence that He is due always. I must never become careless about worship. Nothing can hinder my relationship with Him. Anything that is in the way must be dealt with. I must remember every Ebenezer place in my life. God has been a very present help. I must be careful about what I ask for and make sure that it is in line with the will of God. What others have, no matter how attractive it seems, may not be good for me. No matter how insignificant I may feel I am, God can still be glorified through me- if I obey and acknowledge him. I cannot grieve God. He has spoken through his servants concerning me. He will confirm His word. Everyone will not understand or rejoice over the work of God in my life. That cannot be a hindrance. I have to remember all that God has done!

I have to remember the word of God. Things that should cause me to rejoice should not cause me to worry.