LOOKING BACK

The recesses of your mind—such a tricky place

There’s good, bad

Bliss, arresting sadness all over the place

And all it takes is one thought; one eye catching thing to send you there

You pray to find a new, safe, healthy clean slate to write a new memory

But where?

The things that take you back where you don’t want to go

Are still alive and well

Maybe a little worn since stumbling through your life

But triggers still; your heart will tell

Your brain suggests you fix your face, reassures dignity’s in place

Now if only your racing heartbeat will subside

But some experiences leave scars

That make you relive the hard truth;

Self preservation kicks in

Pride, anxiety tags along, too

No need to question how you are

Of course you’re not okay

But consolation comes to testify you’ve grown since yesterday

It’s human nature to think, to love, to mourn

No crime in how you feel; 

There’s no stopwatch that says by now your heart’s wounds should be healed

Just limit the revisits to the recesses

But if you must go there

Sort out the good; there’s no crime, no need to regret that you cared

Love’s never wasted

Love’s NEVER wasted

Lesson learned, but loving’s not a waste of time

The joy you tasted, Perhaps is what remains

To remember fondly and move on?

It’s just fine.